tomorrows a new day

this is all so new to me . blogging that is. so bear with me until i get the hang of it. i needed a way to voice my feelings about mothering a child with autism. my son ryeder is high functioning and to many people he doesn't appear autistic. that's the thing about autism, there are so many different levels and each child is so individual. every day he is a joy to be with but that doesn't mean it isn't exausting! as mothers we all wonder if our parenting is at all beneficial to our children, but as a mother of a child with autism parenting becomes a whole new ball game. i wonder (on a daily basis) if i'm doing enough to help him learn and grow, and i know there has got to be more i can do. then other days i think "what is it i'm trying to do ?" i waiver between teaching him how to fit into this world and how to just let him exist in his own reality. today when i try to teach letter recognition and he shows no interest (because its so frustrating for him) i question our society and and the whole idea that "we need to conform"- "we need to fit in"- but that is something i have struggled with my entire life, so nothin new, still complicated all the same. Children on the spectrum are a gift in our lives and we learn so much through them, if we would only slow down enough to observe. i welcome any comments or information on letter recognition for autistics and if i can offer any solace to a mother out there, than this is my sole purpose of finally venturing out into the blogasphere!